Sometimes there are just no words to accurately describe your feelings and emotions. Over the last few days, I have gone to three different stores and read what seemed like hundreds of cards, and yet not a single one was able to capture what I want to say to my amazing mother on this Mother's Day. How do you say thank you to someone that has devoted her entire life to you....to provide for you, to teach you, to support you, to guide you, to celebrate you, and now to care for you during your darkest hours. My mom has loved me 100% completely unconditionally since the day I was born 29 years ago. She has shown me through her actions and told me through her words, how much she loves me, each and every single day of my life.
When I was a senior in undergraduate school, I gave a speech in front of nearly 200 women to honor my mom during my sorority's Mom's Weekend. Although, my mom wasn't the most comfortable to have me get up to the podium and talk about her, it was a huge honor for me to publicly profess my love and admiration for her on that day. If I gave this speech today, there would be a million more things I would like to add because it seems like a lifetime has taken place over the last 7 years since then. I still hold that speech close to me and would like to share an excerpt from it in honor of my mom today....
"To know her, is truly to love her. Whenever I run into a friend that I haven’t seen for awhile, they always seem to end up asking, “Oh how is your mom doing?” with a large smile on their face. When she remarried this past fall, I truly believe the excitement felt from my friends matched my very own. She is the mom that everyone loves to hang out with—the perfect balance of a responsible mother and a compassionate friend. But don’t let her cute little 5’ 2’’ tall package deceive you. Within that frame, is one tough cookie. She is a very independent , strong lady. But one tough cookie with a heart of gold.
I want to take this time as an opportunity to say, “Thank You” to my amazing mom. I want to thank you for teaching me the value of laughter, friendship, forgiveness, and responsibility. I want to thank you for allowing me to set so many goals, and then becoming my greatest cheerleader while I strived to achieve them….such as, when I was accepted to graduate school last semester and I listened to you cry on the phone as I told you. I am still not sure if those were tears of joy…or because it meant I was moving back home with the newlyweds for awhile. I want to thank you for being a phenomenal example of strength, intelligence, and determination...without that, I surely would have given up on many of the challenges I have faced these past 22 years. I want to thank you for having enough love, patience, and time to take on the role of not only a mother, but also that of a father…who else would have taught me how to mow the lawn, drive a car, or fix a broken toilet.
But most importantly, I just want to thank you for being you. You are the most incredible person I have ever had the privilege to know. You are always giving yourself to others around you…rarely taking time do things for yourself. But you never mind or complain. Which is yet another tribute to your endless generosity and selflessness. I have never felt so loved, appreciated and supported by another person in all my life. My greatest aspiration in life, is that I may one day become the type of mother that you have always been to me. I love you more than I could ever express in words…you are my very best friend...and I don’t know what I would ever do without you."
Mom, I cannot even imagine how difficult the past 6 weeks have been for you. I am not a mother, but I know that all you want as a mom is to make sure your babies are happy and healthy and have all the opportunities life has to offer. Although my future is uncertain, as it truly is for all of us, I know that we will both be okay no matter what! Through the lessons you have taught me my entire life, I will stay strong and brave and treasure each day. YOU are the one that has taught me how to deal with life's hardships, how to pick your chin up, dust yourself off, and carry on. I wish more than anything in this world that this wasn't happening - that I didn't have to see the pain and suffering in your eyes and sense the helplessness that you feel because you can't fix this and make it all better this time. But please know, although you can't take this awful disease away from me, the unconditional love and support you show me each and every day, is what will get me through this! I couldn't do it without you, Mom and I truly thank God for you every day!
On this day, and all days from here on out, I want you to know how much I love you. I owe everything I have in this life to you and how you have raised me. You have provided me with an amazing life and for that I am eternally grateful. Happy Mother's Day to my beautiful, selfless mom....I love you always!
Happy Mother's Day to all of you incredible mothers! Especially, my wonderful grandma GG, and my loving aunt and Godmother, Aunt Carol. I love you both so much! Also, to all of my amazing aunts, cousins, and friends that have been blessed with the joys of motherhood. I think the world of all of you and your children are so fortunate to have you as their mommas!
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